Thursday, 1 March 2012
Day 51 - Sullen Sheep
Suddenly, our camp had come alive! There was a lot of movement and the short, snappy noises of shooting, mostly pistol shots were heard from all over and especially from the direction between the barracks.
Some of our group chose to explore a bit further and they didn't return apart from one who came back to us with wild staring eyes. He told us that the S.S. were placing infants and babies on chairs and shooting them non-stop. I don't think we could envisage anything any worse anymore. Our feeling and emotions at this time were of utter disbelief and non-comprehension. Because of this I was determined to make a last stand. When I looked around I could find no similar response from my fellow prisoners. What was the matter with them I thought, they were not like comrades in arms at all, they were just like sullen sheep to become shot or put to the sword.
Saturday, 25 February 2012
Wednesday, 15 February 2012
Day 50
See Day 1 (Blog 1 for Introduction)
"In no time our little group came out into the cold moonlight, which seemed, silvery and spooky to us, reflecting an aura of doom and gloom over our side of the globe.
We had little wooden soles with canvas on our feet and had received a little bit of what I think was a kind of bread crust. The whole transport was pretty well intact minus the twenty five dead. At this point, we were nearly senseless and could barely see above the atrocities and cruelty. We had begun to notice only cold and warmth, pain and sorrow and were just barely aware of the stars at night and by day the sun and clouds.
If you got too much out of line you were just shot or pushed or walked into the gas chamber yourself. We moved like "Les Miserables", trying to walk with those planks on our feet. We had to get used to the planks immediately. The earth was very wet and marsh like - I think this place was constructed on the moors to make it harder to endure!
Having walked outside now and passed the two Frankenstein looking buildings with their smoke stacks, I sighed and thought we were too close to them for comfort. To our right, all the barracks looked long and dreary and did not have windows. They put us in the two, last barracks, on our left, next to the furthest crematorium.
Strict orders were given - we were not to leave the barracks! There was one latrine outside with a long pit alongside it with water coverage. That was all,
no bunks, no chairs, no tables. Condemned people sentenced to die do not need to lie or sit down"!
To be continued ....
"In no time our little group came out into the cold moonlight, which seemed, silvery and spooky to us, reflecting an aura of doom and gloom over our side of the globe.
We had little wooden soles with canvas on our feet and had received a little bit of what I think was a kind of bread crust. The whole transport was pretty well intact minus the twenty five dead. At this point, we were nearly senseless and could barely see above the atrocities and cruelty. We had begun to notice only cold and warmth, pain and sorrow and were just barely aware of the stars at night and by day the sun and clouds.
If you got too much out of line you were just shot or pushed or walked into the gas chamber yourself. We moved like "Les Miserables", trying to walk with those planks on our feet. We had to get used to the planks immediately. The earth was very wet and marsh like - I think this place was constructed on the moors to make it harder to endure!
Having walked outside now and passed the two Frankenstein looking buildings with their smoke stacks, I sighed and thought we were too close to them for comfort. To our right, all the barracks looked long and dreary and did not have windows. They put us in the two, last barracks, on our left, next to the furthest crematorium.
Strict orders were given - we were not to leave the barracks! There was one latrine outside with a long pit alongside it with water coverage. That was all,
no bunks, no chairs, no tables. Condemned people sentenced to die do not need to lie or sit down"!
To be continued ....
Day 49 - Reflections on War and Life
See Day 1 (Blog 1 for Introduction)
"I didn't actually see the people being pushed into the death houses and gas chambers. Our "liquidators" were masters at covering up and hiding their atrocities and murders; but the results spoke for themselves. Because of this and other reasons, some survivors past and present, still have a hard time convincing people that the events they saw and experienced actually happened. This seems similar to the struggle that Galileo experienced when trying to convince people that the world was round not flat!
All that happened seems fathomless and incomprehensible to most people. We will never understand the whole affair, spiritually or otherwise. Even the S.S., who were personally involved, acted as though they didn't do it themselves. So much was never understood by those who had never been there. I do know that we were there as a result of a war that we had been forcibly pushed into!
To tell the truth as we saw it and then to be told, or near enough, that it could not have been so is hard for me to understand! Maybe it could all be boiled down to a bad dream, after all, life and death is only a passing event. The S.S. proved that to be true because they were given backing and power which allowed them to do anything to anybody, similar to wild animals.
The belief and faith that the, "All Being", suddenly decides, at a certain point, that it's enough and that people can walk through the Red Sea, destroy their enemies or that one individual will be saved among all the dying, like an ant that is not trodden on is a strong faith! Such things did happen but not for the majority of people in the camps. For the most part, everything ran like clockwork, the trains went to their destinations on time, the gas chambers worked excellently and for a long time nothing seemed to come in the way of the smooth flow of affairs put into motion.
When near the end people seemed to accept their deaths as a matter of fact and if you didn't it made absolutely no difference! One was not capable of doing anything else but suicide. At the same time, soldiers and civilians were dying on all fronts. Somehow, "The Creator", was in all this but who knows his way of working - cleaning the culmination of all the wrongs with more and better wrongs!!??
The passing of events we really do not understand but the visible things are there for the living. It is the same for the whole universe and it's workings - you can see it. Beyond what we can see for ourselves, we do not seem to know or comprehend the infinite whole however much we try to figure it out.
The spirit challenges even it's own maker.
Everybody thinking he or she has the monopoly over what!!!!???????until ground down to nothing over and over again.........."
To be continued ...
"I didn't actually see the people being pushed into the death houses and gas chambers. Our "liquidators" were masters at covering up and hiding their atrocities and murders; but the results spoke for themselves. Because of this and other reasons, some survivors past and present, still have a hard time convincing people that the events they saw and experienced actually happened. This seems similar to the struggle that Galileo experienced when trying to convince people that the world was round not flat!
All that happened seems fathomless and incomprehensible to most people. We will never understand the whole affair, spiritually or otherwise. Even the S.S., who were personally involved, acted as though they didn't do it themselves. So much was never understood by those who had never been there. I do know that we were there as a result of a war that we had been forcibly pushed into!
To tell the truth as we saw it and then to be told, or near enough, that it could not have been so is hard for me to understand! Maybe it could all be boiled down to a bad dream, after all, life and death is only a passing event. The S.S. proved that to be true because they were given backing and power which allowed them to do anything to anybody, similar to wild animals.
The belief and faith that the, "All Being", suddenly decides, at a certain point, that it's enough and that people can walk through the Red Sea, destroy their enemies or that one individual will be saved among all the dying, like an ant that is not trodden on is a strong faith! Such things did happen but not for the majority of people in the camps. For the most part, everything ran like clockwork, the trains went to their destinations on time, the gas chambers worked excellently and for a long time nothing seemed to come in the way of the smooth flow of affairs put into motion.
When near the end people seemed to accept their deaths as a matter of fact and if you didn't it made absolutely no difference! One was not capable of doing anything else but suicide. At the same time, soldiers and civilians were dying on all fronts. Somehow, "The Creator", was in all this but who knows his way of working - cleaning the culmination of all the wrongs with more and better wrongs!!??
The passing of events we really do not understand but the visible things are there for the living. It is the same for the whole universe and it's workings - you can see it. Beyond what we can see for ourselves, we do not seem to know or comprehend the infinite whole however much we try to figure it out.
The spirit challenges even it's own maker.
Everybody thinking he or she has the monopoly over what!!!!???????until ground down to nothing over and over again.........."
To be continued ...
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