"We noticed the smaller and cozier looking goods wagons in which we started entering now with S.S. all around us - they appeared to be in a jovial mood. The insides of the wagons were whitewashed and spread all over with disinfectant. There was also newly made, wooden latrines, neatly constructed and painted light blue. Ample rations of bread were available to us in the form of what looked like a long and consistent loaf, lots of water and lots of room to sit and lay down.
Our fellow comrades left behind were considered to be too sick to come with us. Over two hundred were now going to get the "proper treatment" and we all knew what that meant! Of course, we would never hear of them again! They were very likely, very quickly, all made to join the throngs in the gas and crematorium queues. In fact, probably right at this moment, as I am talking to you!
We were told that they would be hospitalized - that is something we didn't ever see in the camp, for sure, a hospital. Soon the oils, fat and ashes of our comrades would be mixed Arian and Semite and used for the same purposes, then to fertilization, of no difference or consequence but as a handy use for the living in an unadulterated form.
We were thinking gravely now, speaking for myself and others we had never seen mass grave pits while we were there but they were there just like everything else - we would hear about it in a similar camp.
The only thing the S.S. didn't have to do now was to use too many bullets to tire their arms. To them and their helpers, conscious or not of all that was happening, with their mind set and the continuous, drummed indoctrination the events happening were probably similar to a butcher slaughtering animals and that's all it probably felt like for them. For us, it had all become a daily routine and for the time being we all had to accept that unless some force could change it.
There were gallows and injections but we didn't see that either. Like myself and others, you have got to believe that it all happened and then make logical deductions from the facts and the whole picture. If one thing was there then the other things had to be told by the survivors.
I believe that the horror that we witnessed was mostly produced by a variety of multiple actions. The inflicting of pain and suffering in this super-imposed hatred campaign, worthy of a deep primitive background was perpetuated with a ferocity common, at that time, to the Nazi's. It was made to be so painful and quickly executed for speed's sake, the pattern plus the revenge.
Finally, our lanky S.S. announced the usual, rehearsed, "Bon Voyage", we felt very apprehensive as the wagons were softly closed. Off we went onto the next voyage into the unknown. Glad to be still alive on the eleventh day since our arrival in Auschwitz".
To be continued ...