Day 203 - I have a dream I will cross that stream...

I Have A Dream

ABBA

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream, I have a dream

I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream, I have a dream
I'll cross the stream, I have a dream

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me…

Day 202 ESP dARRYL BEM REPITITIVE...

Daryl Bem Proved ESP Is Real

Which means science is broken.

May 17, 2017 Cover Story

It seemed obvious, at first, that Jade Wu was getting punked. In the fall of 2009, the Cornell University undergraduate had come across a posting for a job in the lab of one of the world’s best-known social psychologists. A short while later, she found herself in a conference room, seated alongside several other undergraduate women. “Have you guys heard of extrasensory perception?” Daryl Bem asked the students. They shook their heads.

While most labs in the psych department were harshly lit with fluorescent ceiling bulbs, Bem’s was set up for tranquility. A large tasseled tapestry stretched across one wall, and a cubicle partition was draped with soft, black fabric. It felt like the kind of place where one might stage a séance.

“Well, extrasensory perception, also called ESP, is when you can perceive things that are not immediately available in space or time,” Bem said. “So, for example, when you can perceive something on the other side of the world, or in a different room, or something that hasn’t happened yet.”

It occurred to Wu that the flyer might have been a trick. What if she and the other women were themselves the subjects of Bem’s experiment? What if he were testing whether they’d go along with total nonsense?

“I know this sounds kind of out there,” Wu remembers Bem saying, “but there is evidence for ESP, and I really believe it. But I don’t need you to believe it. In fact, it’s better if you don’t. It’s better if I can say, ‘Even my staff don’t believe in this.’ ”

Day 201 - Exit Auschwitz to Buchenwald March, 14, 1944 - 75 years ago...Br Exit!

Big Influences on my writing, my Dad and Hemingway! 75 years ago my Dad was transferred from Auschwitz to Buchenwald alive - it was a miracle that he survived Auschwitz - today is March 11, 2019,  he was very likely in transit to Buchenwald via the cattle train about this time...75 years ago!
Hey, am I being channeled?

Life and Brexit Is Multifaceted

By Paula De Souza

This weekend an article called, Why America did not Bomb Auschwitz 75 years ago. Why? By Jack Schwartz made me, "Stand at Attention!" Decisions, can be easily debated, after the fact, often with no clear consensus of what should, could or was not done!

Mr. Schwartz's writing made me reflect on the issue of, Why? "After Dunkirk!, did Churchill decide to withdraw and leave the local, Belgium population, to fend for themselves?" My ancestors were like, "Sitting Ducks", who now had to make their way back from Dunkirk to Ostende, only to be occupied by the Germans!

Right now, Brexit seems to have the same demobilizing effect on the British population, both at home and abroad. Seemingly, mobilizing the people into creating new and different tribes. During the "2018, Christmas Speech," Queen Elizabeth II, mentioned, that it seemed to her, that people were becoming more tribal! It has been said, that we are naturally a tribal species and hone towards what we know or are most familiar with, especially as we age.

Although, my dad found himself in new and potentially negative situations he learned to change and adapt as he went along. I believe he passed on his good attitude and characteristics either through DNA or maybe a combination of both!

Another strong influence in my life was my maternal grandmother, from London.
If you even tried to complain, my grandmother, who was a real cockney, used to say, "You just have to get on with it!" and, "The world does not stop because you want to get off!" Maybe, some people might think my grandmother's words harsh. Of course, it depends on your outlook and perspective, as do most things in this life. I always found her comments to be a positive force in my life.

Ironically, one of my Dad's closest brushes with death, as a political, prisoner, in Buchenwald Concentration Camp, were during an allied bombing raid, during which a good friend of his was killed.

I obtained the following information from the International Tracing Service.

Inquiry on Louis Fynaut
... was transferred from Auschwitz concentration camp to Buchenwald on March 14, 1944 (date on arrival). Upon arrival in Buchenwald he was assigned the prisoner number 53152 and was housed in block 57, later he was moved to block 42.

My dad wrote in his memoir, "After liberation, we had all returned, myself first, then soldier Barbaix and eventually Daniel from the east. The only thing we could think about was enjoying ourselves but where was the money going to come from, that was the question... ?

I had just passed our Control Commission, which decided on who was a Political Prisoner and who was most certainly not! Besides all this, of the ten thousand genuine survivors, there were ninety thousand imposters: all this prolonged our agony with endless waiting.

The whole process was embedded in red tape. Then there was the battle of the government. The one we had experienced during occupation and the one in exile. All this had to be sorted out by the competing factions or eventually compromised on.

My dad's concentration camp survival is proof that you can still hold a positive perspective about life and the future despite what other human beings do and say about you. I believe "Life is Multifaceted!" Maybe there needs to be more compromoise on Brexit.

Today...

Day 1\80A- Records from Buchenwald re Louis Fynaut and his incarceration at Auschwitz and Buchenwald...

My dad had mentioned that one of his biggest disappointments, after his experiences at, Auschwitz and Buchenwald were the naysayers and I am happy to say that I have managed to get documented proof of what happened to him as follows:


The logo at the top of the 1st sheet reads:

Stiftung Gedenkstatten
Buchenwald and Mittelbau-Dora

The gist of the correspondence is that most of the documentation can be obtained through the International Tracing Service..... 
However, Buchenwald Archives, in Weimer, Germany, included 9 pages of records, in which is clearly stated that, the information is for personal family use only and cannot be published without consent.

The records include; an Identification card, a record of the clothes he possessed and a metal like tag and some other info.....  

The first thing that hit me in the face was my dad's image staring out at me from the Haftlings-Personal Karte.  The identification photo is very clear and highly defined so is very, very striking. 
I was also particularly aware of the word, STUDENT which shot out at me from one of his record pages.

As usual, to see my dad's face so starkly, sent a wave of emotion over me and made me realize, yet again,  how important it is to lead my life, in a good and decent manner as he did! 

Off the point just a little now...........the other day someone said to me, "It is unusual for someone, she meant me, to have such a strong spiritual connection with a person who is not alive."  I don't think that is unusual at all!!!!?????Am I missing something.........

Lastly, a while back, a troll, sent me some messages unsigned and basically called my dad a liar and said he was a coward and was likely never in the camps, the correspondence was left unsigned....... 

The following data was included on the first pages of the letter received yesterday and nearly duplicates, to a tee,  the chronology of my dad's descriptions of his work assignments and incidents that happened during and after these assignments at Buchenwald.....


Inquiry on

Louis Fynaut

......was transferred from Auschwitz concentration camp to Buchenwald on March 14, 1944 (date on arrival).  Upon arrival in Buchenwald he was assigned the prisoner number 53152 and was housed in block 57, later he was moved to block 42.   During his incarceration he had to work in the following work units:

quarry (53)
Gustloff-Werk II (30, it was an armaments factory located next to the camp)
road construction (41)
drainage construction (14)
police Weimer (34)

Day 200 - The White Rabbit and my dad lived...

Yikes, I couldn't believe it when I just found this - now I am going to find my dad's testimony about Buchenwald....My dad wrote that he gave testimony to Wing Commander Yeo Thomas after Buchenwald was liberated....

F. F. E. Yeo-Thomas

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Tommy Yeo-Thomas
Photograph of Yeo-Thomas taken eight hours before he parachuted into occupied France in September 1943
Birth name	Forest Frederick Edward Yeo-Thomas
Nickname(s)	Tommy
Born	17 June 1902 London, England
Died	26 February 1964 (aged 61) Paris, France
Allegiance	United Kingdom
Service/branch	Royal Air Force
Rank	Wing Commander
Service number	39215
Unit	Special Operations Executive
Battles/wars	Polish-Soviet War Second World War
Awards	George Cross Military Cross & Bar Legion of Honour (France) Croix de guerre (France) Cross of Merit (Poland)

Wing Commander Forest Frederick Edward "Tommy"^[1] Yeo-Thomas GC, MC & Bar (17 June 1902 – 26 February 1964) was a British Special Operations Executive (SOE) agent in the Second World War. Codenamed "SEAHORSE" and "SHELLEY" in the SOE, Yeo-Thomas was known by the Gestapo as "The White Rabbit". His particular sphere of operations was Occupied and Vichy France.

Contents

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• 1Life and career
  • 1.1Early life
  • 1.2Life as an agent
  • 1.3After the war
• 2George Cross citation
• 3Awards and honours
• 4Medals
• 5In popular culture
• 6See also
• 7References
• 8External links

Life and career[edit]

Early life[edit]

Forest Frederick Edward Yeo-Thomas was born in London to John Yeo Thomas, a coal merchant, and Daisy Ethel Thomas (born Burrows). Early in his life, his family moved to Dieppe, France. He spoke both English and French fluently. He saw action in the Polish-Soviet War of 1919–1920, fighting alongside the Poles. He was captured by the Soviet Russian forces, and avoided execution by escaping, in the process strangling a Soviet guard.

Life as an agent[edit]

Between the wars, Yeo-Thomas worked for Molyneux, a successful fashion-house in Paris. After the fall of France and the chaotic evacuation at Dunkirk in 1940, he escaped back to England, where he initially worked as an interpreter for de Gaulle's Free French forces. He was quickly prised away from de Gaulle by the British Special Operations Executive (SOE), a newly formed intelligence and subversion organization. He had enlisted in the RAF but was soon made an officer.

At first Yeo-Thomas worked in an administrative capacity, but SOE soon used him as a liaison officer with the Bureau Central de Renseignements et d'Action (BCRA), the Free French intelligence agency. He was parachuted into occupied France for the first time on 25 February 1943.^[2] Both within France and back in England, Yeo-Thomas forged links with Major Pierre Brossolette and Andre Dewavrin (who went under the codename "Colonel Passy"), and between them they created a strategy for obstructing the German occupation of France. During his missions in France, he dined with prolific and infamous Nazis, such as Klaus Barbie who was known as the 'Butcher of Lyon', to gather vital information, before returning to France on 17 September 1943.^[3] He was appalled by the lack of logistical and material support which the French resistance movements such as the maquis were receiving, to the extent that he begged five minutes with Winston Churchill, the British Prime Minister. Churchill, reluctant at first, but fascinated by what Yeo-Thomas told him, agreed to help him obtain resources for the resistance.

In February 1944, Yeo-Thomas was parachuted into France after flying from RAF Tempsford. However, he was betrayed and captured at the Passy metro station in Paris. In endeavouring to hide his true identity, Yeo-Thomas claimed he was a British pilot named Kenneth Dodkin. He was then taken by the Gestapo to their headquarters at Avenue Foch and subjected to brutal torture, including repeated submersion in ice-cold water (each time to the point that artificial respiration was required to bring him back to consciousness), innumerable physical beatings, and electric shocks applied to the genitals. Held in Fresnes prison, he made two failed attempts to escape and was transferred first to Compiègne prison and then to Buchenwald concentration camp. Within the camp, he began to organize resistance, and again made a brief escape. On his recapture, he passed himself off as a French national and was sent to a prisoner-of-war camp, Stalag XX-B,^[4] near Marienburg.^[5]

While at Buchenwald, Yeo-Thomas met Squadron leader Phil Lamason, the officer in charge of 168 Allied airmen being held there. At great risk, Yeo-Thomas assisted Lamason in getting word out of camp to the German Luftwaffeof the airmen's captivity, knowing that the Luftwaffe would be sympathetic to their situation. He had to don many disguises, as well as shooting an enemy agent point blank with a pistol to escape. Eventually he succeeded and reached Allied lines in late April 1945.^[3]

After the war[edit]

The blue plaque on Yeo-Thomas' flat in Guilford Street

Marker for Yeo-Thomas' ashes in Brookwood Cemetery

After the war, Yeo-Thomas was to be an important witness at the Nuremberg War Trials in the identification of Buchenwald officials. He was a key prosecution witness at the Buchenwald Trial held at Dachau Concentration Camp between April and August 1947. At this trial, 31 members of the Buchenwald staff were convicted of war crimes. He was also a surprise defence witness in the war crimes trial of Otto Skorzeny, particularly on the charge of Skorzeny's use of American uniforms in infiltrating American lines. Yeo-Thomas testified that he and his operatives wore German uniforms behind enemy lines while working for the SOE.

He died at the age of 61 in his Paris apartment following a massive haemorrhage. He was cremated in Paris and then subsequently repatriated to be interred in Brookwood Cemetery, Surrey, where his grave can be found in the Pine Glade Garden of Remembrance. In March 2010 his life was commemorated with an English Heritage blue plaque erected at his flat in Queen Court where he lived in Guilford Street, Camden, Central London.^[6][7]

George Cross citation[edit]

George Cross and its ribbon bar

The London Gazette 15 February 1946 citation read:^[8]

The KING has been graciously pleased to award the George Cross to Acting Wing Commander Forest Frederick Edward YEO-THOMAS, M.C. (89215), Royal Air Force Volunteer Reserve.

This officer was parachuted into France on 25 February 1943. He showed much courage and initiative during his mission, particularly when he enabled a French officer who was being followed by a Gestapo agent in Paris to reach safety and resume clandestine work in another area. He also took charge of a U.S. Army Air Corps officer who had been shot down and, speaking no French, was in danger of capture. This officer returned to England on 15 April 1943, in the aircraft which picked up Wing Commander Yeo-Thomas.

Wing Commander Yeo-Thomas undertook a second mission on 17 September 1943. Soon after his arrival in France, many patriots were arrested. Undeterred, he continued his enquires and obtained information which enabled the desperate situation being rectified. On six occasions, he narrowly escaped arrest. He returned to England on 15 November 1943, bringing British intelligence archives which he had secured from a house watched by the Gestapo.

This officer was again parachuted into France in February, 1944. Despite every security precaution, he was betrayed to the Gestapo in Paris on 21 March. While being taken by car to Gestapo Headquarters, he was badly "beaten up". He then underwent 4 days continuous interrogation, interspersed with beatings and torture, including immersions, head downwards, in ice-cold water, with legs and arms chained. Interrogations later continued for 2 months and Wing Commander Yeo-Thomas was offered his freedom in return for information concerning the Head of a Resistance Secretariat. Owing to his wrist being cut by chains, he contracted blood-poisoning and nearly lost his left arm. He made two daring but unsuccessful attempts to escape. He was then confined in solitude in Fresnes prison for 4 months, including 3 weeks in a darkened cell with very little food. Throughout these months of almost continuous torture, he steadfastly refused to disclose any information.

On 17 July, Wing Commander Yeo-Thomas was sent with a party to Compiègne prison, from which he twice attempted to escape. He and 36 others were transferred to Buchenwald. On the way, they stopped at Saarbrücken, where they were beaten and kept in a tiny hut. They arrived at Buchenwald on 16 August and 16 of them were executed and cremated on 10 September. Wing Commander Yeo-Thomas had already commenced to organise resistance within the camp and remained undaunted by the prospect of a similar fate. He accepted an opportunity of changing his identity with that of a dead French prisoner, on condition that other officers would also be enabled to do so. In this way, he was instrumental in saving the lives of two officers.

Wing Commander Yeo-Thomas was later transferred to a work kommando for Jews. In attempting to escape, he was picked up by a German patrol and, claiming French nationality, was transferred to a camp near Marienburg for French prisoners of war. On 16 April 1945, he led a party of 20 in a most gallant attempt to escape in broad daylight. Ten of them were killed by gunfire from the guards. Those who reached cover split up into small groups. Wing Commander Yeo-Thomas became separated from his companions after 3 days without food. He continued alone for a week and was recaptured when only 800 yards from the American lines. A few days later, he escaped with a party of 10 French prisoners of war, whom he led through German patrols to the American lines.

Wing Commander Yeo-Thomas thus turned his final mission into a success by his determined opposition to the enemy, his strenuous efforts to maintain the morale of his fellow prisoners and his brilliant escape activities. He endured brutal treatment and torture without flinching and showed the most amazing fortitude and devotion to duty throughout his service abroad, during which he was under the constant threat of death.

Day 195 - MEMOIR Louis Fynaut....

Day 194 - Louis Fynaut's Experiences at Auschwitz and Buchenwald - a summary to celebrate his birthdate - 94 years later...

Louis Emmanuel Fynaut To celebrate my Dad's 94 Birthdate posted on Hypertext

with a brief introduction by Paula Fynaut

Paula Fynaut is the daughter of Louis Emmanuel Fynaut. She writes, "Louis Emmanuel Fynaut was my Dad; he wrote his memoirs about his war experiences in Belgium, France and Germany from approximately 1940 until 1945.  He always had great integrity and courage and I hope that someone will benefit from reading his memoir and will learn how to be strong and TO NEVER GIVE UP! He was a Flemish teenager, still in high school in Ostende, when the Nazis invaded Belgium in 1940. He watched Belgium's antiquated bi-planes fly off to face Germany's far more advanced Messerschmitts, with a sense of impending doom. Pieces written by my Dad were found with his memoirs on loose sheets of paper. I bolded "To Each His Own," which was the title of his memoirs. Also, he talks of specters, past and present—our family fought the Germans in WWI as well as WWII, so he may be referring to that part of our family history!

Glory To War
by Louis Emmanuel Fynaut Poem written by my Dad...

To Each His Own evolves a picture of an adverse assembly of specters, past and present, 
sitting on a multitude of battle-ready horses with mad, drunken, hysterical staring eyes; 
guided firmly in the saddle by the terrible ghost of grim corrupt dignitaries 
cloaked in all kinds of beautiful apparel of stupendous splendour, 
rich ornaments, tiaras, uniforms and medallions. 
Covered by an eerie aura of bad stormy weather, 
darkening the pomp and glamour spectacle galore; 
wallowing in unsurpassed greediness 
with the sweet, rotten stench of death ever-present around. 
Passing by like a macabre parade; 
trampling casually on the mutilated corpses of long-suffering mankind, foe and friend alike. 
Little voices crying from beneath the holocaust, 
faintly heard by the stunned helpless survivors:
"We are next ...
Tell the world, please!"

Murder Incorporated!

It was the twenty-sixth of April, 1944 ...

I was abruptly woken by cries and noise outside, the train coming to a long halt and a sudden stop. Noise and a tumult of short orders, doors flung open, one after the other, until it came to ours with the shouting and ordering of Ër rausch" (Get Out!) ... They continuously insulted us now, one gets quickly accustomed to being treated like an animal! We were total wrecks, unshaven, bewildered, sick, frustrated, indifferent and completely disorientated—that's the way they wanted us to be!

The biggest part of all that was that it had been carefully planned and calculated with what they called a proficient German efficiency program.

Murder Incorporated was waiting for us en masse. All sorts of S.S. fighting and political units from Tartarus (hell) welcomed us with an authentic and theatrical bit of real Teutonic reversed charm. Whoever amongst us still  had any doubts would have, within a few seconds, all dreams of compassion dashed to pieces. 

The S.S. all had big grins; to compare those grins to hyenas' would be an insult to the animals, I think. Anyway, they were there in full force, ready to begin their lugubrious work as a business.

What transpired now one had to be there to believe, and even then it is hard to comprehend.

Whilst we started gathering and still some being carried out from the wagons, by their mates, I had a quick glance at the enormity of the camp and its extensions afar from where I stood I couldn't see the end of it from my left side at all.  The security fence appeared to be double-barbed with the outer electrified; once confined you were certainly well secured; no expense seemed to have been too much.  I had a quick glance at some of the inmates nearest to us, now.

Women, men, I couldn't see any children. All dressed up as if ready for an enormous ball or carnival, moving along like zombies, some carrying between them, on long poles, a big barrel dangling in the middle.

It was more than enough to see, the threatening S.S. drew my attention now. A tall, grinning, skull-and-crossbones S.S. officer shouted at the wagon occupants to bring out their wounded and half dead near to him and he stood legs spread out on what looked like woodpiles about twenty feet away. He faced the whole miserable herd in length and breadth of our column as seeming to have descended from Dante's inferno. He was gesticulating and waving his long arms with a luger in his hand in every direction possible. 

He might as well have had no uniform or flesh on his body, Death itself!

The wounded all very much alive pulled along by the S.S. soldiers and spread out at the officer's feet, some begging, I do not know for what—feeling death too near I suppose! Now pointing his luger at us in a sinister way, laughing, he then began to shoot the lot of them, twenty to twenty four, one at a time in the head, some in the neck still hysterically laughing more and more now. When he had finished he just went on laughing again as though he enjoyed the whole thing tremendously...

We just stood there perplexed as though we had arrived in another hell hole, which was another inferno being stoked up for us, beyond any credibility.

A French Officer, a few paces from me, detached himself from us giving us the usual gesture as if he was going to relieve himself but about twenty feet from our end of the column stood an S.S. motorbike. A German policeman was in between and slightly sideways probably wondering what the Frenchman had in mind at that moment. The man kept coming on so that the S.S. officer noticed it and screaming loudly to the police officer; he said, "shoot him quickly, he is after my bike".

At this the policeman shot him in the leg at close range which made the Frenchman tumble in his length backwards; he got up again and now putting his arms up as a surrender sign. The S.S. officer still storming forward in a rage now, howled to the policeman, "shoot him" and they shot him in the heart. When he did that, in hesitancy, it was the Coup de Grace to finish it off!

Auschwitz—Gas Chambers and Crematorium

Somehow, with all the effort and excitement this seemed to have taken the breath away from the S.S. officer and it appeared that he had enough of it; a pause for us!

The burly, younger, hooligan S.S. soldiers took over and mumbled obscene, blistering ghoulish remarks such as, "Funeral March". An open van had now arrived with senior inmates and they began gathering the well-expected harvest of cut-down bodies. They threw them casually into the van like they were sacks of potatoes—in a very similar manner to harvest time, as if this was a usual occurrence.

We were then pushed and bullied around until we formed ranks of five and had to give each other an arm, this made it easier for them to watch us. After this the march started with the van and victims leading.

I noticed Janeck just behind me in the next row, a bit too close for safety. A bully of an S.S. Officer and his mate were marching alongside us now and we were too near to the front for my liking. The bulky soldier said to his companion, "I think one is going to break free from here", and he put his hand on his hip ready to pull out his pistol. Luckily, for us nothing happened!

As we marched down we passed by an electrical barbed-wire fence and made our way toward a group of small trees where carrion crows were sitting; the crows were making a din and screeching, which reminded me of vultures gathering. Some circled around and swooped down in erratic, long, swift glides, croaking and fluttering, making a remarkable spectacle for the approaching column. No other birds were present in the pale sky and one was aware of an atmosphere of disaster and utter despair all around us!

It was quiet and noiseless. The column of death kept marching on relentlessly, moving along that muddy dirt ride in Poland. Coming out of the woods, the first thing we saw in the distance was the foothills of the Karpathes. I started dreaming of reaching those hills at the first opportunity. Still very thirsty and dry now, but at the back of my mind was the image of the gruesome reception that the "Welcome Committee" had laid on for us. At this moment, I had the illusion of babbling cool mountain streams around us with dark green meadows that I could drop into and be cajoled into lusty frolicking games.

In the meantime, the S.S. officer and soldier had moved forward, giving Janeck the opportunity to talk—Janeck now moved closer to me to do so. On our left and behind the barbed wire fence a couple of weird, grotesque-looking buildings appeared, quite large in size. They were at least thirty to fifty feet long and about twenty five feet wide and loomed up in our wide-eyed view. One side had barred windows and the other side had small rectangular openings that could be hermetically sealed—the walls looked to be as thick as a safe's. The side which had the windows also had long bars.

I now said to Janeck, "Is that where we are going to work?" Janeck who was more with it and up-to-date than I, quickly responded, "Don't be silly, those are gas chambers and crematoriums, all in one system, newly constructed and a maximum of one year old at the most".

As a matter of fact, this was still hard for us to swallow, but there it was in all its glory. It could not be more clear to us now as it unfolded itself perfectly before our open eyes. Since our arrival, one shock had followed the other in rapid succession, from this one to the next as we kept on marching...

We were still alive, less 25 people. Our mood which was very down now became more and more somber by the minute ...

"Kanada and Wintershelp"

It was the end of April when we set out and now it was the second of May 1944. Nobody had heard of the hidden extermination camp yet; all this was very much incognito. Nevertheless, after the war and during this period of time, they showed us aerial views of people standing in queues waiting for their turn in the gas chambers.

Why not bomb the whole place completely—what were the odds for any of us? After the Jews it was us and anybody under the slightest suspicion and those considered untermensch, they would have made "lebensroum" [livingt room] just for themselves and have enough slaves left over to serve them in turn. This scheme was far too big and well-organized with the other grotesque ideas that they had in mind with the thousand year "Reich"—solutions to be just for religions, ethnics or their enemies.

The weather at this time was still very humid and cold with waterlogged, flat land. On our arrival when we had still been with the wagons, which were now well behind us, we had noticed a little sharp church steeple to the north west. some distance away—I later learned that that church was in Birken au Village. We all noticed that those ghastly buildings had a tall square tapering chimney in each centre; they were not smoking at this time.

We finally came to a halt at a big gate, hell's gate. Our luggage followed the dead in the front and the living in the middle and behind us the leftovers. After entering the gate, which was open wide and under close surveillance we were stopped and gradually led into what looked like a sorting building which was long and low, called "Kanada". Numerous working inmates were rushing around, looking nervous, ready to receive their orders from the S.S., who were standing around en masse, some with dogs.

All our belongings were being sorted and passed along the human assembly line, including that which we had on except for our belts—which for this moment was still a good sign, as later we were to be outfitted with other clothes. The destination for our clothes was "Wintershelp" for the Germans, including the soldiers on the eastern front.

The Gestapo bureau was a lucrative business and a well-oiled enterprise with a lot of the state under its total control, being a state within a state. No Mafia or other old established order had come as near to this situation, in such a short time span, with so much crime dispatched and displayed, it seemed, with such utter, complete enjoyment!

Kramer: The Bully of Sacksenhausen!

To our further amazement an S.S. was going over our files with our numbers again, contemplating the order of our fate. Later, I realized that the big, round-faced S.S. officer going over our files was Kramer, the well-known bully of Sacksenhausen. He had his dog with him and was continuously shaking his head at some of the Jewish helpers called, "der sonder-commando" or the sin commando. They were so named because they survived by doing the burning, hard labour and dirty work.

If they were lucky, they could get a further six-month extension on their lives; then they would eventually be replaced and in turn become candidates for the gas chambers. They helped put their own families into the gas chambers as well as other people, and then would pull them out to be cremated in the powerful ovens. All this was told to us by their own people as we were waiting.

All around us there seemed to be a lot of complications, orders and counter-orders were going back and forth in a somewhat oversubscribed communication system. It was even suggested that we shouldn't be there at all. Apparently we were in the wrong place and accommodations needed to be found for us as soon as possible—they wanted to move us along so that we wouldn't see too much of what was going on whilst we were there. We were still designated under N.N., the disappearing number or "Nacht und Nebel".

We were to be shot directly if we went slightly out of line. This turned out to be very much so. I had gone inside and lost track of Janeck. Everybody had been busy looking after themselves and some of us had still been contemplating how to attack as a last resort. I had decided that the middle of the pack would be best, as nobody would move from the forward position.

I was half-way down, sitting against what we were told were showers but the concrete boxes looked like old contraptions to me—big thick doors again, dark cellular-looking insides with a pipe sticking out from the ceiling. At first, I thought that maybe they were disinfecting chambers for clothes but we were told that they were old gas chambers. This was the first old building they had used for this—the "stable" they called it. I worked out that they could take maybe ten or more people and there were about three or four of them as far as I could see. I didn't look too closely, don't forget we were still in a state of dehydration which was getting worse by the minute. Some had drunk from the water on the ground which was dirty and disease-ridden.

Rushed orders came suddenly and we started moving! I left the damned doors quickly and hurried into the queue to be shaven. On an elevated platform were prisoner barbers—shaving us crudely of every hair that they could find with blunt and rusty razors. We came out of this ordeal scratched and bleeding.

A fairly large Jew from Antwerp, better dressed than the others, explained to us the ins and outs, the daily routine of the camp and what we should keep. Every batch was then assembled in a larger place with security at both ends and big sliding doors. One S.S. was waiting inside the doors, controlling the valves for water, lucky for us! He let about twenty of us in at a time. After he had opened some valves a few drips came out from the pipes above us, which we drank eagerly, looking stupidly at each other whilst waiting for more; and then we looked at the S.S. soldier hoping for more!

At that moment, a tumult arose on my left and near the corner closest to me; approaching it I saw there were already some people near. The S.S. were coming too, swearing like hell now; I kept my distance ...

Simon Wiesenthal and the Sorry-Looking Clowns!

With the belts, one prisoner had tried to cut his wrist with razor blades; a tourniquet was wound around his wrist and the S.S. furiously told him off saying that he couldn't cut his wrist without permission and how stupid he was! That fellow must have been Simon Wiesenthal (later, he became a famous Jewish Nazi hunter); anyway, he survived and came all the way with us—they never noticed or separated him from the rest of us.

He wasn't allowed to take his own life, what a sarcastic twist of the whole chicanery—they were going to take our lives away when they felt like it but even that had become their prerogative. Obviously, they thought the only real authority was from the abyss; the oath they had taken said so.

Before we passed through the opposite door we received a complete immersion in a concrete trough filled to the brim with a green liquid. The liquid must have been a kind of disinfectant; as we passed through the door somebody put a heavy, round mop on our heads; it looked like a plunger and they dipped it in the green stuff.

It was like a baptism! After this glorified treatment we found ourselves in a long draughty corridor, which we had to run to its length. As it was night, cold and early in the year, you can imagine that we were only too glad to make a good run for it—it felt near to the freezing point. Chilled to the bone now and still having that sausage with us that we couldn't eat —we had had nothing to eat now for a long time—I think that five days had passed by now since we had last eaten but we had lost track of time.

At the end of the hall we came to a room full of clothes spread out and you quickly had to choose the ones that fit best. These were full of bullet holes and were of a dried red colour and covered with lime; they looked like they had been quickly prepared in old gas chambers.

So we put them on looking like sorry clowns, similar to the people we had seen running around when we had arrived. Even in our state, when looking at each other, we couldn't help but release a pitiful laugh, and some poked their fingers through the holes, as in disbelief.

It seems to me that in situations such as these the mind can only take so much, and then it stops and you just keep on going or it snaps altogether.

Since my release, I have met people from all walks of life who told me that as I didn't see everything with my own eyes and only heard some things from other prisoners that somehow those things didn't happen ...

I have also witnessed the aftermath on some of my fellow prisoners who came back to us with their lugubrious news of horrible and disturbing events. As they recounted these things, it appeared to me that they themselves had a hard time comprehending or convincing themselves that such things were really happening—even though they were witnessing them with their own eyes!

Just us and Nothingness!

Later in the evening we had our first glimpse of the new arrivals who came in two big transports similar to what ours had been. In great haste, men, women and children all Jews from Hungary were placed in the barracks opposite to us. The Eichmann program had started on the Reich's declaration of the final solution—which was direct and total dissemination with no pause at all!

The fires were waiting and stoked to the full for all the human fat, hair and ashes. Everything had a use in the camp!

We were put in our barracks again, safely out of view, with a 24-hour guard. Not the slightest movement was allowed, not even a quick peek near the doors was permitted—many of our deceased inmates had learned their lesson the hard way and therefore nobody disobeyed the rules now!

All though the night we heard shuffling, muffled cries and weeping, interrupted by the shouting of the S.S. here and there. Death itself was among us; it was walking the perimeter in whatever form or shape you may wish to imagine. It was all around us, you could hear it, think it, and feel it, almost see it, mostly by using your senses like animals.

Death was ever-present that night, just like a thick, dirty bog full of skeletons and there was also the ever-present stench of human flesh. Already the column for mass slaughter was being moved towards the fires, an endless ribbon of human misery and tragedy.

At last, after an uneasy sleep, in which nightmares were unnecessary as reality was even worse! Our guards left, their mission completed and now they walked out into the sunlight and we followed them into the blinding sunlight and "Oh my God"! we looked at the chimney stacks—they were smoking!

The stacks were belching big fires close to the top.  The smoke, driven by the wind, rose high into the sky and then tailed off into a thick, fat, oily looking,  ball-like formation.  The shape then curled off in one direction, spreading far out over the damp landscape and dissipated into nothingness.

This is what had become of the people we had heard during the night.  All that remained were ashes.  Believe me, this time there were tears in our eyes! In our incapacity and feeling complete desolation we stood there watching and there was nothing we could do about it—not even one grey uniform to be seen around us now, just us!

We stood there clenched fists, lost in our own thoughts, hopeless.  We looked at the empty billets and again a terrible feeling of desolation swept over us! No life at all, not the slightest sign, absolutely nothing, just us!

On the double gates of the barracks were big boards on which notices were posted indicating that there had been cholera and typhus fumigations, the great lie, and so what, we knew that the Jewish Hungarians had come in alive.  The notices were for our benefit to make us believe that we had imagined things and had not seen or heard anything.

It is beyond me how this action could be explained away like that by the S.S.  They must have been half mad themselves to go though with such a procedure!  It aggravates ones thinking of "justice", when one has witnessed a massacre of such magnitude and injustice.

We have failed abysmally, we are not capable of running things right, the wisdom is awfully lacking if what we witnessed was made possible!

We were now moving away from this gory sight, always moving further inside the camp but separate from the Jewish sections which we could see all around us.

We still had about 30 Jewish people hidden among us, nobody had squealed or showed they noticed".

Day 54—"Tell the World", Please!

We were given better bunks than our Jewish inmates.  We were also given one blanket and running though the centre of our barracks was a heated floor constructed with bricks—it looked like an ancient Roman drain.  We also had more drips of water than in Compiegne but nevertheless our accommodation was cold and spartan.  On a regular basis, the same food/brew was brought to us in barrels carried by their Hebrew slaves.

During morning and evening roll call, we were made to watch how they mistreated our Jewish inmates who stood opposite and a bit further along from us.  On one occasion, we saw the Commandant, Mengele and also his beautiful camp companion about fifty yards away.  It was a show for our benefit!  With whips in their hands they gave orders to other Capa prisoners or supervisors to beat up fellow prisoners—they would point out some made-up disorderly conduct issues that they imagined to be fit for punishment with a horse whip.

They told one prisoner to lay down and expose his back.  They then beat him up and gave him a final last kick to indicate that he should join the ranks again.  This was the order of the day the prisoners told us.

We were now at the eleventh day, doing nothing and  not knowing what would happen to us. We had a weekend over with and were still alive. We suddenly heard music from some sort of band, floating on a feeble wind—it was the music for the marching to the gas chambers by the old stables. We came to know this from other inmates.

More and more of us became very sick, very ill actually, maybe from the drinking of the dirty water and maybe other diseases were starting to take their toll. We also heard shooting further away, we couldn't see too much as we were kept well away from the scene.

I couldn't actually tell you whether we had been at the stables exactly either but we thought we had been somewhere in that area when we first arrived.  So, even being there in the camp, we found ourselves always in doubt at any given moment.

We were then told we were due for transport and when the moment came we were led out to the other side of the camp. There we saw more crematoriums with gas chambers which we hadn't seen before.  All in all there must have been five chimneys.

As we turned the corner, we saw some Jewish girls near their own circled fence and a bit further away were lots of Jewish children playing like on any other school ground or playing fields.  They even started throwing bread to us and speaking in French saying they came from Lille, northern France.

Somehow, somebody put the question to them, "What do you think will  happen to you?"  In unison, they looked at the crematoriums and chimneys and pointed to them and said, "That's where we are going soon", shaking their heads up and down in one accord, they knew and had no doubts, even smiling in a sure way well aware of the short time that they had left to live.  We looked more frightened and worried than them  - as anybody would have.

We were shouted at to move on and quickly they cried to us hanging on with their little hands on the fence, "Tell the world, please, what happened to us".

Again, tears streamed down our faces, to what use!  We rubbed our hands over our faces and took off now moved by force, departing with drooping heads.

We arrived at the rail tracks at what looked like the construction of the inside of a station.  There were lots of Jewish labourers as slaves on their six month reprieve, still working or labouring away whilst barely alive, looking at us with vacant eyes. This was still in the camp, one can just imagine the enormous size of it all. 

Of course, selfish humans that we were, we were pleased to get away from there with the feeling of being given a hard green apple and then probably getting an apple less green later for being such good boys.

A lanky officer asked us if we were Arians and now told us that we were going to work in the most organized camp in Germany, namely Buchenwald"!

Leaving Auschwitz for Buchenwald!

We noticed the smaller and cozier looking goods wagons in which we started entering now with S.S. all around us—they appeared to be in a jovial mood.  The insides of the wagons were whitewashed and spread all over with disinfectant.  There was also newly made, wooden latrines, neatly constructed and painted light blue.  Ample rations of bread were available to us in the form of what looked like a long and consistent loaf, lots of water and lots of room to sit and lay down.

Our fellow comrades left behind were considered to be too sick to come with us.  Over two hundred were now going to get the "proper treatment" and we all knew what that meant!  Of course, we would never hear of them again! They were very likely, very quickly, all made to join the throngs in the gas and crematorium queues.  In fact, probably right at this moment, as I am talking to you!

We were told that they would be hospitalized—that is something we didn't ever see in the camp, for sure, a hospital.  Soon the oils, fat and ashes of our comrades would be mixed Arian and Semite and used for the same purposes, then to fertilization, of no difference or consequence but as a handy use for the living in an unadulterated form.

We were thinking gravely now, speaking for myself and others we had never seen mass grave pits while we were there but they were there just like everything else—we would hear about it in a similar camp.

The only thing the S.S. didn't have to do now was to use too many bullets to tire their arms.  To them and their helpers, conscious or not of all that was happening, with their mind set and the continuous, drummed indoctrination the events happening were probably similar to a butcher slaughtering animals and that's all it probably felt like for them.  For us, it had all become a daily routine and for the time being we all had to accept that unless some force could change it.

There were gallows and injections but we didn't see that either.  Like myself and others, you have got to believe that it all happened and then make logical deductions from the facts and the whole picture.  If one thing was there then the other things had to be told by the survivors.

I believe that the horror that we witnessed was mostly produced by a variety of multiple actions.  The inflicting of pain and suffering in this super-imposed hatred campaign, worthy of a deep primitive background was perpetuated with a ferocity common, at that time, to the Nazis.  It was made to be so painful and quickly executed for speed's sake, the pattern plus the revenge.

Finally, our lanky S.S. announced the usual, rehearsed, "Bon Voyage", we felt very apprehensive as the wagons were softly closed.  Off we went onto the next voyage into the unknown.  Glad to be still alive on the eleventh day since our arrival in Auschwitz.

First Impressions of Buchenwald!

We were on our way back to Weimar, the old republic of Saxony and Goethe's paradise and home region.  There was no attempt at anything like escaping, it was out of the question—our brains could only absorb so much!  We now wondered what Buchenwald would be like!

As usual, the railway ran on time and gradually we mounted the slope leading up to the wooded area of Eisenberg—all nicely tucked away so that nobody could see too much. Near the bottom of the hill was a massive cordon of tank corps situated at the outer circle.  On top of the hill was a full S.S. training camp and then there were the guards and the electrical fence circling the entire concentration camp.  Buchenwald had started out as a rehabilitation camp for dissidents and from thereon had gone from bad to worse.

We came to the camp station just next to and outside the fence and were greeted by the usual welcome party—ferocious dogs.  Some of us were bitten straight away, pieces of flesh were bitten right out of our buttocks leaving bleeding and large open wounds.  In this situation one just had to run for his life.

On my left side I noticed that there were newly built factories. I was walked or rather I should say rushed around with those dogs behind me, panting and drooling and trying to get a  bite.  At this point it was us against the dogs.  Then suddenly the human "Welcome Society" came into view—they seemed to be as obedient as the dogs.  They were armed with whips and comprised of the underdog slave drivers or camp elders and CAPO's.  Everybody had badges with red triangles. 

Some of the guards were Germans who had survived the rise of the Reich with Hitler as Fuhrer—they had extra Rights and Privileges because according to the Nazis they were not considered to be "ordinary criminals". They were mostly just a bit left-wing, communist or socialist.  There were also some religious representatives—mostly protestants.  In addition, there were  deserters and people considered to be abnormal.

They all wore ordinary civilian suits and berets usually of typical European origin.  The suits had been altered using dye or by the addition of squares that had been sewn in so one could clearly see the markings and they also had the white-blue stripes of galley prisoners.  There was a number under the triangle and a stripped ribbon with block and wing marks as well as armbands with the word "Capo" on.  These camp guards now took charge of us instead of the S.S. standing beside us.

I remember all the details clearly.  Auschwitz had looked like a forest with dead/death trees sticking out of a bog, very bare in comparison with this camp, which in contrast, had a a superb view, similar to what I would expect to see in a holiday camp.

At a four point crossroads elevated on a green, grass patch was a pole, very much like a totem pole. The pole had planks jutting out that were being used as sign posts.  On one was a clearly drawn and painted caricature of S.S. marching figures.  They were drawn in groups of four in full regalia with weapons.  This particular plank pointed towards the S.S. quarters which stuck  out in the distance.  The buildings resembled high rise flats and were of a somber grey colour.

The rest of the planks at the crossroads had the following images: an affluent Jewish capitalist with the yellow star of King David, a political prisoner with a red triangle, a criminal with a green triangle and a purple, black and blue triangle representing: religions, homosexuals, saboteurs and deserters.

Lastly, was "Gouzloff Werke", which represented factory installations. These factories were next to the thick woods by the station and on the other side of the train tracks. Gouzloff was a German capitalist or industrialist and a major shareholder in the company.

"Caracho Weg", Good Road or Paradise Way!

Our files followed us everywhere and while in Buchenwald our deaths would come about by hard labour in the quarry or strassen-bau, firing squad, machine gun, hanging, injection, torture and chopping off of heads— which was the privilege of another outside department, you were specially sent for on this occasion!

There were also a number of on-demand applications performed by the S.S. doctors such as garroting with piano wires or meat hooks and dissecting, as well as other medicinal and scientific experiments.  The human guinea pigs were there in ample supply and always available at any time.

There was a tower too, the Bismarck Tower; I could now faintly see the silhouette of the tower though the mist.  Under this tower were the broken bodies of so many buried in mass graves.

Towards the direction of Weimer, beyond the work places, was Goethe's tree house.  This stood near to a double gate with more fences.  Goethe wrote many of his best works here and spent many hours relaxing at this spot. We couldn't see the tree house as we were walking but could see an indictor/sign that pointed to Weimar.

The road for the prisoners in the camp was nicely captioned too and was written in Russian and read "Caracho Weg",  meaning the Good Road or Paradise Way—so Buchenwald might as well have been called Shangri-la too!  The sarcasm of it all had just begun!

At this point, we were just reaching two guard houses, one on each side of the road when we encountered two representatives from this "mock paradise", with weapons pointed they ordered us to "Mutzen ab" (take caps off).

Perched on a pillar, in the middle of the road was an enormous eagle, carved in stone, hewn from the quarry.

On a wooden board, above the guardhouse entrance was inscribed in Goethe script "Recht oder Unrecht mein Vaterland", meaning "Right or Wrong my Country".

"Jedem Das Seine" or "To Each his Own"

To commit wrongs in the name of patriotism is certainly not the right thing to do!  It brings to mind the saying "Patriotism is the last refuge of the scoundrel".

We now came to the habitat of the Commandant, at "half way house".  It was on the left of us and well constructed with a garden and in front of it were two soixante-quinze guns. You could call him the son of a gun then!

The house was in the Cararcho Weg/Way and was quite nice.  No formal greeting here that would be coming.

On our right, we could see the electrical fence and some of the camp site sloping downwards and there was also a lane of tree coverage between us.  The setting and decor was ideal and grand and it would get better.  As we proceeded we walked as if to eternity, getting one surprise after another.  Continually, moving towards the sunset now or in the morning to the sunrise, heads bobbing up and down.

We came to what looked like part of an actual zoo.  These animals had come from the Berlin Tiergarden Zoo to be put in a safe place away from the bombing  and under the protection of the camp.  There was, of course, the rock garden with baboons showing their bald bottoms to us.  There was also a black bear present who we guessed was being better fed than we were.

Behind the animals was a dug out space with a ramp of soil. This space was there to receive the impact of the machine gun bullets from the ripped-in-half victims who were placed on the wooden stakes—more often to be replaced than not.  I suppose the barking of the dog baboons assisted in muffling up the noise that was made.  One can comprehend how the nerves of these animals must have become agitated every time executions were carried out.

With our "dimmed view", we now had to wait on the spot.  Looking over the camp and on a short curve to the right, we could now see a big center tower.  It had cellular constructions extending from the base, these were the execution or torture cells which were located on each side of the tower.  They also used these constructions for quick interrogations and for firing squad and guillotine transports.

The "Mutzen ab", order was given again and then we had the "privilege" of hearing the best band in Germany performing or beating time for our benefit. They were dressed in the most colourful uniforms taken from the nineteenth century orchestra or military capelle.  They looked like real clowns or a circus band.  By the way, these people were originally  musicians from the Philharmonic Orchestra of Prague; they had been taken as hostages for some disturbances that had occurred in Czechoslavakia at that time.  Only the best were good enough for this.

Around the camp were many "Miradors", as the French called them, or Watch Towers—these were manned by a machine gunner with a search light and two more soldiers.  On the center tower were several search lights placed on the balcony.  From this point, the Administration could watch the crowds, who were to be counted, as well as see the entirety of the camp, which was in the shape of a nearly perfect pentagon and on a slope.

On a clear day we could see the statue of Barberossa which was an enormous obelisk in the distance.  Barberossa was a Swedish, Field Marshal and conqueror of renown.  More often than not, in the late season, as we stood for roll call, we were covered with a mist or rather low passing clouds.

Turning in from the corner end our band stood, the Commandant in the company of his wife of a certain fame, named Ilse Koch and his S.S. Handlangers with their whips ready.

We were now faced with the gate in wrought iron!  On the bars in letters about the width and height of a man were the words, "Jedem Das Seine" or "To Each his Own".

The gates opened for us and we would enter now!  It was like the entrance of hell on the way to heaven, guarded by the devil and his demons.  Only Saint Peter was absent ...

Lamp Shades and Ilsa Koch

We were now greeted by a big open space.  We then saw the confines of the wooden billets.  For the next mile or so, after the billets, were row after row of two-story stone buildings.  Below were more buildings, which included a brothel and an indoctrination hall for propaganda films and picture taking, no lectures.

A quarantine camp was situated in between the junior and senior camps, which appeared to be two to four rows in depth and length. On your left was a small first aid station or hospital.  To the right was the crematorium but no gas chambers.  The crematorium was smaller than a single building in Auschwitz but similar to the building we had last seen with the little girls.

We then entered the shaving block area and finally came to a large kitchen.  The kitchen struck us as not very big for the camp size!

The hanging tree of Goethe was in front of us It was a big, thick oak tree and was just coming into bloom. In the center were concrete trenches used to dangle victims after being hung.  Goethe used to sit at that tree writing and looking at the landscape, very likely in serene meditation not realizing what would become of his special place in the coming years.

In all of this horror there had to be some salvation for the international prisoners represented at Buchenwald.  This presented itself in the form of "The Ark."  The Ark was an underground resistance movement which gave some of us the strength to float above the atrocities and survive.

We now entered the sorting and shearing rooms again; as we passed through we just had enough time to gather more information about the camp from senior prisoners.  It was the 14th of May, 1944 and we were facing a new period of detention, albeit with a diminished group. The Capos and helpers guided us through the process under the surveillance of a single S.S. agent. 

The inmates warned us that we needed to be on our best behavior at all times— which meant orders had to be followed promptly.  We were also instructed to be subservient, to the extreme of what one could bear, and at the same time be unobtrusive!

Lastly, they said it was better not to be covered in or show beautiful tattoos.  They said,  "keep those fellow/fellows out of view".  The reason being that the wife of the Commandant had a peculiar hobby of picking those bodies out for the purpose of covering lampshades!

The Commandant's wife was Ilse Koch.  She would spy on potential candidates from secret holes and compartments and look for anything that appealed to her morbid sense of satisfaction, which included making lampshades from human skin.

Once again, we were shaved all over our bodies and bathed too.  Our clothes, from Auschwitz, were exchanged for striped ones with red triangles on that had numbers for this camp.

We were continually reminded of the nightmare that we were still involved in as the cruel stories continually reached our ears from the other prisoners.

Injections and Indoctrination Movies!

There was also an unemployment bureau within the camp.  This bureau would determine which tasks we were was best suited to perform. Behind the S.S. buildings was a quarry which supplied stones for the roads and camp and even contracts further afield.

In a place called "Valkenhof", falcon house, there were more animals and a fenced park for deer and boar which was tended to by prisoners.  There was also villas for the VIPs—between 1944 to 1945 the camp was closely associated  with the einsatz groups of the S.S who very likely stayed in these villas.

We had arrived at a good time to join the international resistance within the camp, which at that time was growing stronger and stronger by the day.  The  camp resistance group had originally been started by Germans, of which eighty percent had now disappeared.

Personalities who had been at the camp prior to their release in 1940 were Richard Thalmann, Hood and Walter Poller. From our side were people like Blum, the Brussels redactor from the newspaper "Le Peuple"; Dewever, a dentist from Antwerp; and many other representatives with diverse political opinions—not just from the left, as implied by the press and other sources.  To our dismay and to the merriment of the Nazi's rivalry, chauvinism, bias and small mindedness were always rife and present within our ranks. 

We now moved slowly to the lower camp, a quarantine camp.  Here we could verify most of the things we had recently heard from the other prisoners.  The atmosphere and environment we now found ourselves in was very similar to Auschwitz.  A dirty little quagmire with closed barracks, one blanket, open pit toilets and outside washing pipes with troughs.  We were separated from the upper or senior camp by a fence.  We were also kept separate from the brothel and indoctrination hall below us.

For the next three weeks we received so many injections that we were warned to try and dodge them by passing them through the skin pressed between our fingers, inside one way and out the other if possible.  The injections were administered by the Capos and camp helpers and an S.S., who couldn't always be everywhere— so this was the method to employ while he was distracted.

During the quiet spells there we searched for lost friends and at other transports for news of friends and acquaintances back home.  We were also taken to the indoctrination block to be photographed, measured and receive more new numbers.  Then we were shown an S.S. film about their superior qualities in training and fighting—which we had to watch.  Nothing about cruelty as they had enough experience of that with the prisoners and for us to look at within the camp!

After that our new numbers were sewn on the coats and trousers, which were striped.

Prisoner Justice!

We discovered that there was camp money in circulation—marks that could be changed.  We would receive camp money for our first work command, which was the quarry—a touch of the hardest labour to begin with!  The quarry was called "Steinbuck", and was on the southern side of the hill overlooking the forested undulations of Franconia and Bavaria—the nearest town being Eisenach.

"Steinbuck" would have been a good point to have escaped from had it not been for a close chain of guards.  When it was misty and if there was low cloud they doubled the guard—the grey uniforms, Totenkaphen, which consisted of four foreign S.S., entwining Ukrainians!  They had formed their own international [?] too, which was in the style of the Nazi's of course.

On one off our "off duty", days we followed a black marketer who helped get rid of our money.  He led us to the rear end of the quarantine camp where we encountered two poor desolate figures huddled together in a corner.  So that's what the money exchange was for—for those "Miserables" still speculating.

One turned out to be grandfather, Michelin and the other an Armenian millionaire.  They had both sold crucifixes and other paraphernalia at Lourdes before having received their wages for sin here!  This practice was looked at with distaste by the other prisoners.  In no time, our black marketer was spotted and chased and we were warned not to take any heed of him.

On our way back we noticed a prisoner with two buckets full of stones and sand standing fixed on a wooden box.  This prisoner had stolen food from his comrades—we now realized what severe punishment could happen if caught in such as act and we quickly learned our lesson.

The camp was like an underworld, full of petty intrigue and corruption.  After a while in quarantine, all pent up revenge on suspected and guilty traitors would break loose and a quick trial would be executed.  This would be carried out by commandos bringing in sharp instruments or by drowning—this involved holding the victim's head down in the troughs, surrounded by the crowd.

Another method was to chase the fellow out into the evening, at curfew— with no other alternative but to throw themselves onto the barbed wire near the electrical fence were they would be shot simultaneously by the "Miradors".  They were not always suicides as shown in photos.

The S.S. didn't care a bit and the bodies were just added to the rest laying along the block with the others, to be taken away by the "leich tragers", body carriers to the crematorium, its yard infested with rats and other vermin.  The mouths of the victims hung open and their limbs lay broken before the corpses were burnt then thrown onto a death pile for cremation.

The Jews in Buchenwald had almost completely disappeared, either to Auschwitz, Bergen Belsen or Mathausen.  There were still thirty Jews hidden amongst us—strong builders and probably more that I didn't know about, the rest were mixed in with us and unknown to anybody.  We saw the shoe piles left from past prisoners, only the uppers, the soles had been used by other prisoners.

Personal fights of desperation only landed people in the crematorium.  The people killed as traitors, which I witnessed, were as far as I could make out, guilty without a doubt.  On one occasion, we watched an individual from Eastern Europe flattering the S.S. around us in a very obvious manner.  French inmates knew that he had given them away on previous occasions while in French jails.  They loathed him; his ways and manners gave him the look of a creep.

One day his ordeal came to pass!  He was stabbed in the liver with a small, needle sharp bar, which had been smuggled in from the Guzloffe-Werke.  He was then gradually driven to the trough and from there pushed in and held under water until drowned.  After this, I remember his accusers, straight-away, looking around for others—it seemed to be easy, once done, such was the mood.  In addition, people were apt to commit bestialities with impunity and no second thoughts about it.

One of the Capos had become as cruel and crude as the S.S.  He beat up  other prisoners with his stick until they were laying flat on the ground and then kicked them— to the delight of the watching S.S.

This one had to go for sure, one way or the other!